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Monday, February 26, 2007
11:52:00 AM

Me and my son @ Sembawang Park(February 2007)

.MY COMPLICATED WORLD.

Today is another day of the same routine....but i'm glad coz it actually made me lose weight fast.
I was 71kg last week and today i weigh 67kg....i lost 4kg within 3 days!! I eat less now coz my kids kept me bz whenever they are awake and i have no time for snacking anymore(which is good). But i don't understand why those housewife wif more than 1 kid can gain weight??
Especially with our malay community...the women after getting married can gain weight easily(unless u are bless wif genetically thin family members). Somehow i realize that the women stop caring abt their appearance once they are married....i mean when we first go for a date, we would try our best to look good rite?? and that is the person that our husband fell in love with, so after marriage if we don't look as good then can we blame our husband for looking for other alternatives?? So i believe we have to keep up on our appearance so that our husband can be proud....i used to take things for granted oso....i don't care abt my weight and i was fat(lucky for me my husband didn't find other alternatives but i know he wishes that i was like the time that he dated me...so i decided to change and i lose my extra weight. He was happy and is proud that his wife looks good. Even now after having two kids, i still try to look presentable...

For the husband, if u want ur wife to look good then do some investment....looking good doesn't come cheap u know!!! There's clothes, make-up, creams(facial/body), bags, accessories, hair and the lists goes on....if u don't want to invest then u should not complain if u are stuck wif a wife who looks "simple"....so don't envy those men whose wife looks good coz they invest.

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Friday, February 23, 2007
1:49:00 PM

Labels: Family pics 2006

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Me and my Family @ Hari Raya gathering 2006....

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My 2 precious kids....Kim actually luvs his sister a lot....i tot he would be jealous of her but he seems to be very loving towards his sister....Now my whole life revolve ard these two....but i luv it!!!

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It has a long...long time since i've updated my blog...well i have been kind of bz with stuffs...like my 2nd pregnancy and giving birth to my daughter, Nadya Hanim. Oso adding to it all my son now is very mobile...keeping me on my toes all the time...i've turned into the typical mothers...always saying 'stop!', 'don't touch that!'..etc.
My daughter kept waking up in odd hours and demanding my attention when she is awake...but somehow i'm loving it all...
My daily schedule would be as follows;
4.30am - Feed Nadya and change her diaper
7.30am - wake up and shower
8.00am - cook lunch for myself and my son
8.30am - watch TV (the sitcom 'Friends' on scv)
9.00am - my precious son is awake, give him milk and shower him
9.30am - my precious daughter is awake, give her milk and shower her
10.00am - Spend time with them
12.00nn - Nap time!!(i would be bz doing d dishes and other housework)
2.00pm - Both are awake..milk for Nadya and porridge for Kim...
3.00pm - Lunch for me...
6.00pm - Nap time again!!!(dishes, laundry and other housework for me)
8.00pm - Both are awake....dinner for Kim...Nadya demands to be carried
10.00pm - Hubby came back and he took over....rest time(hopefully) for me
And the cycle continues everyday...tat is the reason why i DO NOT WANT TO BE A FULLTIME HOUSEWIFE!!

.MY COMPLICATED WORLD.

Monday, May 29, 2006
11:02:00 PM

Kim with his favourite grandma and he is very close with her coz he knows she will 'manja' him....he is her golden grandson and nobody can bully kim when his grandma is around....and he knows tat....

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Kim with his favourite soft toy...Mr Tortoise

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Now i'm on a month school break...tis is wat i luv about teaching, 'THE HOLIDAYS'. I would be so lucky as to get the whole month break..ya rite!! Back to work for me next week...planning and decorating....
This week i vow to devote my time to my precious son...this is the only time i can play and teach him stuffs...btw,he now luvs Hi-5 and Elmo....its hilarious if the Hi-5 advertisement is on..he would divert all his attention to the T.V...i can see that he is happy spending time with me...always wanting my full attention....he would follow me wherever i go in his walker...
I put my handphone on the silent mode coz i do not want anybody from work to disturb my rest time..and true enough i received 5 missed calls from my collegue and vp(can't they just live without me for one bloody week!!!)
Today, i finally got my energy back to do my housework...last week my energy was totally drained off, from work and having to bring my son to my sister's place every morning....
Anyway my good frend Nana invited me to her sister's wedding last Saturday but i did not go coz i'm really feeling very drained out and i feel kind of guilty for not going....(nana, if u are reading this I'M SO SO SORRY...)Anyway i'm just happy that both of them are finally legally married....all the best to them and their future...
Actually, i kind of missed my frends a lot....i missed spending time with them, just going out or hanging out at each others place....It seems that all of us are busy with our things...nana is busy with her job(lawyer pon kalah), marni with her freelance and wedding thingy, mas with the arrival of her second son, zai...well zai is always busy with 'something'(till now i don't know wat)....it seems like its difficult to be together-gether again like the old time....

.MY COMPLICATED WORLD.

Sunday, May 28, 2006
9:36:00 PM

Well i just tested positive for pregnancy....So i haf to go thru all over again the pregnancy process...haizzz....how did those people who got pregnant over and over again went thru it!!! I would haf been very happy if this happen 2 years later, but now!!!! The thrill is no more there....Frankly speaking i don't look forward to it coz i know another endless trip to the doctor for checkups, another round of backache, feeling of tiredness....being incapable of doing certain things, looking extremely huge, being heavy on the front side....and the lists goes on....(that is fyi during pregnancy ONLY!!! During delivery period... the contraction pain....if i don't want the contraction pain then i haf to endure the insertion of the epidural pain....( how the hell can we curl up in a C position when our tummy is big and in the way and oso how can we stay still if we are dealing with the bloody contraction pain!!!)No wonder "syurga di tapak kaki IBU" we suffer so much just to bring a life to this world but do we get appreciated?? Depends on your luck....and the Husbands..they saw u having difficulties but they want to haf more kids!!(wat, u guys enjoy seeing us in pain izzit!!! Is tis a revenge for us for nagging at u guys!!!)
Well no matter how i complain i still haf to go thru it but i make it a mark that this is the last time...I WANT TO STOP AT TWO!!!

.MY COMPLICATED WORLD.

Saturday, May 06, 2006
10:12:00 PM

Today is our General Elections Day....it is my first time voting for Sembawang GRC....its between PAP and SDP. Well they say voting is secret but to me there is no secret at all...i would definitely vote for PAP coz i am after all a PAP Young Member and oso i am working under PAP...
I don't understand those people who vote against PAP....PAP has done a lot for our community....i mean don't you like it that they gave us money to get our support?? i don't want to be a hypocrite...taking their money but go against them....I have a strong feeling that PAP is going to win in Sembawang GRC(no doubt about it).
Luckily Hong Kah GRC is a walkover...if not i would be very busy having to work extra hours in order to help out...well after all i am working under Mr Yeo's and i have met him personally a few times and honestly he is a nice man.
I think i better stop typing now and concentrate on the newa about the Elections....

.MY COMPLICATED WORLD.

Saturday, April 22, 2006
1:06:00 PM

These few days have been a hectic days for me....first, last Wednesday i took half day off to send my son or his check-up at KKH then after that we went to Pasir Ris for the chalet that my hubby had booked. We did not spend the night there but just to feel how its like going to the chalet with Fikri. He really enjoy himself there.....second, i went to work as normal on Thursday but after that have to send my niece to school coz my sis send my mom for her check-up at NUH, my son is at home with my hubby. Later that day my sis sms to me that my mom have to be admitted in hospital for 5 days, we were all shocked to hear the news, even my hubby oso shocked but his main concern is who is going to look after Fikri..he said he finally realize how important my mom is in our lives...that nite we went to the hospital to visit my mom....she was happy to see us. Fahmy told his mom abt what happened but his mom does not show a little bit of concern about the matter, or at least if she doesn't carre abt my mom at least show concern abt her one and only grandson...my husband was utterly disappointed....Yesterday Fahmy called his mom again to tell her abt the situations again and we found out actually she is sour abt my son being close to my side....hahahaha...WAT A JOKE!!!A GRANDMOTHER actually says that my son don't like her so she don't want to look afte him( MY SON IS ONLY 7 MONTHS OLD!!! FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!) He knows nothing abt who he likes and who he don't like and if you spend more time with him and he is familiar with you of coz he would be close to you but if you don't care then too bad lah and don't complain!!!...
Well the one who should be sour abt these things is my mom... coz for the past 6 years i've been married to Fahmy, i have actually neglect my family....Mother's Day-For the past 6 years i have been spending it with Fahmy's family and only once with my family but then oso after spending it with them....Hari Raya- Every bloody years the first day of Hari Raya i have been going out with Fahmy's family and going to their family side....never with my family...Their birthdays- NEver fail me and Fahmy would organize to eat out and celebrate it for them, but my family side NEVER!!!!!
But all those sacrifice is NEVER enough for his family.
So who should be sour abt the whole thing??!! But my family never once complain abt the whole situations....

.MY COMPLICATED WORLD.

Saturday, April 15, 2006
2:00:00 PM

Why do i have to associate myself with people who are overly sensitive...people who can't take remarks or other people's opinion as part and parcel of life...I mean i myself get nasty remarks from people who i know and luv; such as, i'm arrogant, i haf a stuck up face and many more, but i don't take it personally as i know that its part and parcel of life!!! Coz this world is not perfect and people haf the right to their own opinion and i can't stop them.....
I am a very direct and straight forward person....i just say whats in my mind and to me its better than those people who pretend to be nice but talk back behind you.....if i don't like someone, i would not waste my time being nice or talk to the person...i would not even want to see the person...
My husband is opposite..he is very gentle in his words and he don't like to hurt people's feelings...especially his family and of course mine....i haf put him in difficult situations many times bcoz of my straight forwardness....I guess enough is enough lah...i don't want him to be in difficult situations anymore so i shall get the hell out of his life so his family or future family member can be happy....i don't expect people to change and i definitely don't change for people, what i expect is for people to understand me and my character.
I'm this way for a reason...i don't haf a "perfect" family life....i haf to be independent since i was 16 years old....living alone in Boon Lay coz my dad is working and only comes home in the weekends and my mom is at my sis place at Choa Chu Kang looking after my nieces and nephew...so i would come back to an empty home and buy or cook my own meals....so life to me is not a bed of roses and i can't afford to be overly sensitive about things and definitely not "manja"....
Those who knows me well will know that i am actually very harmless and if u are nice to me then i will be nice to u but if u give me shit then u will get shit back in your face!!!!

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